Hi Dearest,
haha not in a zillion years i was thinking to re-write again. Well maybe im pretty lonely nowaday. its by choice :) . not to worry.
hmm For real? actually im really hope that he will always be beside me but obviously he cant do that, even-thought he promise he will,unfortunately, time shown that he cant. Why? im still looking for the answer.
Oh! i almost forget! actually he did not left me alone, he left me with his shadow (we name it his "soul") who cant do anything even cant comfort me when im breakdown with tears.
in short --- useless.
Thanks to Miss Harriet aka Mr Khairil, that he randomly click on my old blog, make me thought to recreate my blog, make me feel to write again. Im not a good writer, but im absolutely a good mumbler. So im trying my best to vomit it in this empty white electronic paper.
Yeah, so, me and lonely. Why? hmm lonely have taught me on "stop talking and start thinking". In my childhood until my relationship with my ex, talking was my number one favourite thing to do! talk talk talk talk n talk! i event talk about unnecessary thing! going out with friend! flirting! and doing other cool girly stuff. Compared to now, im kinda like when i was left alone by him in this house, or when i was waiting for a train. or when i was sitting alone.
He give me the latest n coolest gadget so that he can reach me anytime anywhere. but, when i wanna reach him everytime everywhere, it seem to be impossible thing to do.
Maybe im the one who should gift him the coolest gadget then.
so, leaving alone staring at the window n sky, focus n listen to the wind, smell and start to breath deeply, make me realize, how grateful of me to be born perfect. to be left alone. to meet him. to eat alone. to shop alone. to drive alone. to go to a place alone. it really build up me from inside. change me from a childish to an adult. from a talker to a thinker. from a girl to a women. perhaps. but for sure, something in me are difference. when you are alone, you will start appreciate time when you with others.
Friends? haha i have soo many friends! everybody want to be my friends. but not calling or text them went im in trouble or im alone is by choice. im not good in maintaining a relationship, im also a bit choosy with whom i wanna hangup or share my secrete with. guess im not trust them enough. Changing places also one of reason my losing or far from my friends. Well, let left friends topic we will talk more about friends along the way :)
So this is roughly why im start on writing again.
Till then!
Bye~~~~
